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Happiness is all around me I'm finally updating! Did you miss me? I missed diaryland like crazy. Now that I am all settled into my new place, and finally wrestled some of my own time away from other people, I intend to do it more often. Of course, I have been saying that for quite a while. I really mean it though. I will make time in my hella hectic schedule for computer stuff. On the weather front, it's cold and snowing here, how fun. We're expecting 2-4 inches here, which is nothing compared to what the rest of the States have gotten. In our little corner of paradise we've been skipped by all the snow so far. I guess it's just fair that we're getting some now. It's going to melt fast though, since it'll be up in the fifties next week. But for right now it is freezing cold! I came up with a theory for why I forget how cold it is each winter. I repress the memory. Otherwise I would need some serious therapy. Stupid cold. My nose is about to fall off. In academic news, I'm taking my ACT test in February, which I'm excited about. I think it'll be cake. I'm hoping for a good score to get some nice big scholarships. Open some doors for me. C'mon, lucky ACTs. Bring momma those good colleges. I'm filling out applications for my top three college choices. My top two picks are in Tennessee, the third and hardest to get into is in Pennsylvania. I'm still planning to start in the fall. It'll be hell to move away from the only place I've ever known and from my uncle, who I love so much. My Mom is planning to move where ever I move for college, but I don't want to take my brother away from a place he's lived all his life. She needs to find her own way too. She has so much potential if she would stop letting depression and self doubt cloud it out. I won't be living with her, anyway. I'm going to have a dorm room on campus, live the regular college students life. At least thats the plan for now. I'm anguishing over the whole thing. I feel very alone in my choices for college. I guess that doesn't make much sense. I'm just scared over such a huge event, leaving my home state, leaving family and familiarity, which is normal. I'll make it through just fine, like I usually do. But not without a lot of mental distress first, I'm sure. I'm currently looking for a job, which could be going better. I guess if I got my ass out more and placed more applications, I would get a call back from someone. I just expected once I had my Ged, the job offers would land in my lap. Ah, the joys of inexperienced youth. What can you expect though, I'm an optimist. Go figure. Today we adopted a gorgeous dog! His name is Armani, and he is the best dog we could have asked for. He's two years old, a medium sized collie mix and knows every trick and obedience training in the book. The biggest sweetheart ever too. We get to pick him up the first of January. Everyone is very excited, he's a very calm lapdog, which is what we all wanted. Adopting animals rocks the hizzouse. I've already discussed volunteering at the animal shelter we're adopting from with the woman in charge. I need to start getting out on my own and doing things I'd like to do, like volunteering. It'll do my heart good, be something I'll be proud of and won't hurt my college application, either. I want to do this to help the poor animals though. I'll have to find some way to not want to take them all home with me. Ladies and gentlemen, I am officially getting my car fixed. It'll be a year that I've owned it and it's worked for about two weeks out of that time period. It's been sitting out at my uncle's since early July, bleaching in the unrelenting sun of the ohio fields. I hope that it'll run, because I love it beyond measure. It's crazy how you can just love something for no good reason, isn't it? That's part of what makes life worth living. Loving, I mean. Faith, hope, trust, honesty and love. I've come to value these things most of all lately. It's very good to be alive. And I feel good. |